A light at the end of the tunnel...my VBA2C fight

So, last time I discussed this on my blog...I was having resistance from my OB. Naturally he has concerns, but he gave me some untrue facts on VBA2C and VBAC. He also flat out told me I would kill or hurt my unborn child. I left his office crying, because in my heart I know what I am capable of. I had yet another meeting with him last Friday...I told him I respect him as an OB but I cannot consent to a repeat c-section knowing what I now know. I don't think that any OB I have ever had has has my best interests at heart, and that is how I have ended up with 2 csections. So after he lied to me about the risks of VBA2C, he neglected to counsel me on the risks of the repeat csection, just expected me to consent. The consent form has it written down and for those who don't know what the risks are let me break it down:

• death
• bowel obstruction
• major blood loss requiring transfusion
• uterine scars which can cause complications in future

These are just a few issues...and I'm not going to get into why I am choosing not to consent. It's an educated decision I have made with my husband. It is ultimately my choice so please keep your judgements to yourself. 

At my most recent visit to the OB, he referred me to the head of the OB department at the hospital. My appointment is tomorrow. OH and by the way, they hadn't even requested my section reports from previous csections from the other hospitals. This is very risky because there could have been catastrophic complications that could have came about in this pregnancy that relied on the information from those reports. See what I mean by not considering my best interests. 

I contacted a homebirth midwife from OKC that does do VBAC and VBA2C. My first discussion with her was extremely helpful. She said that in her opinion the meeting with the cheif OB was set up with the intentions to scare me once again. I told her my plan to labor at home and go in at 8cm to deliver, she suggested that I get all my medical records and instead of trying to with that plan, that I should consider going OU in OKC when I was still in earlier labor. That they couldnt deny me medical help, and they would not force me into signing a section. I also asked her questions about her services and if she'd take me being that I am 38 weeks and a few days and I am a VBA2C. YES! What about Tricare? Possible reimbersement but I would pay out of pocket.

After having some disscussions with my hubby...We decided that, we are still going to attend the meeting with cheif OB tommarow. I will request to have all my medical records when I leave. I could not sleep at all last night, so I called the midwife back this morning, and asked her if we can set a payment plan for her fees. Agreed! So, she is comming over Thursday morning to check out my house and so we can talk and she can check me out and all the other fun stuff. As of right now, my opinion and feelings is that if I try to labor at the hospital it is not going to in my favor, I am convinced it's not going to hurt that bad, I am not scared of a pain free labor.